I’m baaack! Miss me?

 
I can’t believe it’s been 6 months since I started my sabbatical! If you’ve been following me for a while, you’ll know that in March, I announced that I needed to take a month off to heal some deep wounds and focus on my health. If you’re new to my list or if you don’t remember (seriously, who even remembers what they had for breakfast yesterday morning!?), you can read about it here
 
Back then, I didn’t anticipate that I’d take 6 months off. I thought it would only be one, maybe two, max.
 
Back then, I didn’t anticipate that my medical condition would still be the same 6 months later. I thought if I healed my inner wounds, the external would heal too.
 
Back then, I didn’t anticipate that I’d ascend to a whole new level of existence, a whole new way of BEING in this world, but not of it. I thought I was just working on some buried emotional pain. 
 
But the truth is…
 
We are not in control of our lives.
 
As the old saying goes, “Man plans and God laughs.”
 
During my six-month inner vision quest, I’ve tumbled deep down the rabbit hole and have emerged humbled, cracked open and surrendered to anything that comes my way – whether I agree with it, understand it, want it… or not. 
 
I always thought I was the captain of my ship. Put your mind on something, go after it, and it’s yours. Time and time again, I’ve proven to myself that I CAN have everything I want. It’s this steadfast belief and take-charge-of-your-own-destiny attitude that’s gotten me where I am today. 
 
Except…. sometimes while we’re busy making plans, life makes its own plans for us. Sometimes we can only follow our own path for so long, and then we start to see that maybe there’s another path. One we hadn’t been ready to see… or commit to, because we were so busy forging our own way, surviving, thriving, going after what we want, whacking all the weeds out of our way, trudging uphill, doing everything we can to make a good life for ourselves and those we love. 
 
I’ve come to know that we can only go so far on our own path, on this level of existence, before we discover that there’s something divinely more, something much, much bigger and deeper than our human self with all its desires, yearnings, problems and successes – and this is the important part – we surrender to it. 
 
To some of you reading this, you’ll have no idea what I’m talking about. And that’s okay. These words are for those of you who are in the midst of a calling to surrender. You know who you are. Somehow all this jibber jabber is resonating with you, isn’t it? There’s something awakening, brewing inside you like a familiar cup of tea. 
 
This post is for you… especially if you’ve been experiencing unexplained depression, anxiety, sorrow, deep anger or disconnection lately.
 
Hmmmmm…. I wonder what that’s about? 
 
Go deeper. Look beyond the surface of things. 
 
There’s a calling in there for you.
 
The consciousness of our planet is shifting.
 
You feel it, don’t you?
 
You might not be able to explain it, or put your finger on it, or understand it. And maybe you’ve been beating yourself up for feeling so “off” lately. 
 
Let me tell you this now… it’s not your fault.
 
It’s your gift. 
 
It’s the shift.
 
It’s happening. 
 
With or without you.
 
Go deeper into yourself (not your human self with its personality and judgments and hurts). I’m talking about YOU, who you really are. Your soul. 
 
Go deeper. 
 
Sit. Be still. Breathe. Witness.
 
I trust you’ll find a new path, one divinely created just for you.
 
In love and light,
 
Tree & Stick Girl